I'm writing a business proposal.

and i want to make it work.

Where's the passion?

I didn't even realised is gone until now.
How can i get it back?

how do you know?

How do you know you two belong together?

To accept

Was talking to my German teacher Frau Ernst the other day, i have to mention- Frau Ernst, she has energy of a 12 year old girl although she is 73, and insist on teaching even though her husband doesn't agree. Her passion is inspiring but she likes to talk...A LOT, but that i can understand, after all what do you expect from a 73 year old lady?

As always, she likes to talk about 'absolutely anything' during our lessons, and at that particular day, she told us a secret. A secret of happy marriage. How she remain happy for the last 45 years.

'You have to accept the other person completely and never try to change him/her. that's the secret of happy marriage'

In some way, i do agree with her, but can it be done? i doubt.

i didn't know missing someone is exhausting.

ya.

I want to travel and have long holidays

It does seem like i travel a lot. Well, i do, i just came back from london, and i travel to Dusseldorf once a month to see someone. My london trip was not wholly for pleasure, i worked for 2 days, then met up with my 15 relatives from Malaysia and my parents, i was the tour guide, showing them around, it was not really a relaxing trip, but i do enjoy their company, and i had nice chinese food, i can't complain. I was travelling very often, but not enjoying and not.............TRAVELLING.
The last holiday i had was......see i can't even remember. I spent my Christmas last year with my parents and my sister, it was the gap between my last job and this one. It was extremely hectic with me moving down here, starting a new job and everything. Then i went to London for CNY, again not for my pleasure but something else. I went home for a week in Feb for my bro's wedding, not really a holiday, though i had good time seeing everyone. March, didn't really travel. April, i was in Mannheim to see some friends, it was great fun! then went to Dusseldorf and Koln for work again, and spent Easter in Dusseldorf. Didn't go anywhere or see anything. Was supposed to go to Holland to see tulips, in the end, too poor and can't afford the fuel. Straight after that, to London, and now back to Nurnberg.
I felt exhausted, even my boss could see that, i'm not satisfied. I want to travel! to see new things! to experience something new! i need new inspiration! i need a long holiday for myself, only myself, with no one to please, nothing to worry, no one to see, no dinner to go to, but with money to spend! I'm getting so dull......so dull. god.

Happy ever after

Is it possible?
I saw 'becoming Jane' yesterday, and i watched 'northanger abbey' today, to know what Jane Austen went through and to read what she has written, is very sad. Coming back to the novels she has written, something strikes me, it is always with a happy ending(the couple is happily married) always-happy ever after, what happens to after the marriage? what about that? They stay true and faithful to each other? They hold each other till the end of the day like the vows they've taken?
I do wonder if happy ever after does exist, after all, we are human, love fades and love dies.