i didn't know missing someone is exhausting.

ya.

I want to travel and have long holidays

It does seem like i travel a lot. Well, i do, i just came back from london, and i travel to Dusseldorf once a month to see someone. My london trip was not wholly for pleasure, i worked for 2 days, then met up with my 15 relatives from Malaysia and my parents, i was the tour guide, showing them around, it was not really a relaxing trip, but i do enjoy their company, and i had nice chinese food, i can't complain. I was travelling very often, but not enjoying and not.............TRAVELLING.
The last holiday i had was......see i can't even remember. I spent my Christmas last year with my parents and my sister, it was the gap between my last job and this one. It was extremely hectic with me moving down here, starting a new job and everything. Then i went to London for CNY, again not for my pleasure but something else. I went home for a week in Feb for my bro's wedding, not really a holiday, though i had good time seeing everyone. March, didn't really travel. April, i was in Mannheim to see some friends, it was great fun! then went to Dusseldorf and Koln for work again, and spent Easter in Dusseldorf. Didn't go anywhere or see anything. Was supposed to go to Holland to see tulips, in the end, too poor and can't afford the fuel. Straight after that, to London, and now back to Nurnberg.
I felt exhausted, even my boss could see that, i'm not satisfied. I want to travel! to see new things! to experience something new! i need new inspiration! i need a long holiday for myself, only myself, with no one to please, nothing to worry, no one to see, no dinner to go to, but with money to spend! I'm getting so dull......so dull. god.

Happy ever after

Is it possible?
I saw 'becoming Jane' yesterday, and i watched 'northanger abbey' today, to know what Jane Austen went through and to read what she has written, is very sad. Coming back to the novels she has written, something strikes me, it is always with a happy ending(the couple is happily married) always-happy ever after, what happens to after the marriage? what about that? They stay true and faithful to each other? They hold each other till the end of the day like the vows they've taken?
I do wonder if happy ever after does exist, after all, we are human, love fades and love dies.

lovely dinner.

I was very busy at work today, nevertheless i managed to get out at 7pm, catching the lovely sunset(just adjusted the clock on Sunday, thus it is still light at 7), went to the supermarket, got a bottle of white vine, because i already know what i want to cook tonight.

I've cooked a creamy pasta before but unsuccessful, so this time, i decided to give it another go, and it turn out to be fantastic!! I think i got the right cream this time, I've checked with colleagues beforehand, just to make sure i don't get it wrong.

This is it. I've already eaten mine, i was too hungry. This is the portion for my lunch tomorrow(I'm starting a new scheme, in order to save money, I'm cooking my dinner and lunch for next day together). Spaghetti with salmon and mushroom. I know this is a strange combination, but it is very very tasty.... plus garlic bread(to save time, i bought a ready-made one)

And of course, a bottle of white wine.....

The combination was just so right, and i can't wait to do it again. So happy and satisfied.

Misses him here.

He took a week off and spent it here in Nurnberg with me. I was of course working, and he was at home, cooking, cleaning up the dishes afterwards, cleaning the flat, going grocery shopping...... i say this is a good decision, Monday was the second time he cooked for me after almost 7 years, i know it sounds a little bit unbelievable, but it is true!!! It was extremely kind of him to use up his holidays here, while i was working.
He took off today, and my heart went with him. The flat is quiet again, and there won't be hot meal ready when i come home after work.

Spring

A sunny day today, many people got off work early to enjoy it, so did i.

This is the coldest and longest winter since i'm here, and i can't wait to wear my flip flops again. Took some snap shot on my way home-clear blue sky, i even open the window to enjoy the breeze and bird's chirping.

While i was driving, couldn't make up my mind where to go. In the end, i've decided to walk a little in the park behind my flat, believe it or not, this is the first time, but i've already been living here for almost 3 months!

It was quiet, and nice, and spring indeed, is just around the corner.

Settling down

Finally, i have a weekend for my own, cleaning my flat and move all the unnecessary boxes to the cellar. With the kitchen installed on Tuesday, this finally feels more like home.
Work's been alright, i'm starting to be busy with few collections to do. It is actually quite interesting, i'm designing a sailing collection for the States, then another winter collection for Retail worldwide. I have never design a sailing collection before, and i'm happy to have a chance to learn how to do it. These are the thing i can never experience if i stay in Esprit, and i have to say i kind of like it, but i'm still struggling with the different way of working in Puma. Well, nothing is perfect, you gain something and you lose something at the same time.
Everything seems going to the right direction, except the worrying economy crisis. Retail sector is been hitting hard, and i really don't know how long i can stay in this job, moreover the probation period is 6 MONTHS!! Well, we'll see.