Another horrible drive

It took me almost 5 hours to drive from Mannheim to Dusseldorf. What a day??

I was so exhausted. Again, more snow on the road, traffic....i love snows, but please, i don't want to drive in this condition anymore.

He lives on the ground floor with communal garden, i woke up this 'afternoon', and the garden is covered in more than 10cm snow.....for a moment, it feels like im staying in a ski resort. Is actually quite nice staying indoor, and is nice and white outside. :)

Strasbourg-disaster

After work on Friday, i drove to Mannheim and stayed at a friend's place.
The drive from Nürnberg to Mannheim was horrible. I've never driven in this kind of condition. It was snowing very heavily, it was super cold, at least -8 degree Celsius, my wiper didn't work because everything was frozen, i couldn't see anything from my window because even my window was frozen(both on the inside and outside) i had to scrap off the ice while i was driving. The road was full of snow, i couldn't see which lane i was driving..............but i did arrive at Mannheim after 3 and a half hours(it usually take 2 and a half hours), which was fine.
Today, we did something even more outrageous. It was -10 this morning, we somehow convinced ourselves that Strasbourg will be warmer and WE, we can stand the cold. What the hell was i thinking??
Obviously, that was a mistake. I've never felt so cold in my LIFE. I remember when i was in Vienna 2 years ago, it was -17, but i didn't find it as cold as today. At the end of the 3 hours walk, i couldn't feel my toes anymore. I'm serious, i really couldn't feel it. I wonder if the locals can stand it too. In that 3 hours, we walked through some nice Christmas markets, had hot orange juice, went into the Dom and a biscuit shop, took less than 10 pics(because it was that cold, that nobody bother to take any), had crepes. I couldn't be more happy to leave. It was way too cold.
I was so looking forward to this trip, but it ended in disaster, mind you, I'm still cold now.
I still have to drive to Düsseldorf tomorrow, fingers crossed.

I'm done for the year

I'm officially on holiday. Finally. Until 7th of January. No more staying late at work. I'm so happy. What more can i say?
I'm done. done for the year.
There are several things which worth mention and celebrate:
-Shusien dropped by few weeks ago when she was travelling in Europe, we've had great fun together, and it was super nice to see her, and hang out, thanks for coming. I wish i can take some time off work to travel with you, but i couldn't, i hope you've enjoyed your trip here.
-Sewing machine is here. I did spend a good hour with it on that day, but not since then. I was so busy with work, all i did at home was eat, shower, TV for a while, and sleep. Sorry, i will definitely spend more time with you in January. And 'YOU' are a fantastic little thing.
-My flight to Hong Kong is booked. I'm flying to hong kong for work, and then flying home for CNY, am going to booked my flight tomorrow(to KL), so excited.
-found a cool 2nd hand furniture shop in Nürnberg, so cool.
-spending Christmas in London and probably flying off to Ireland for a couple of days.
-HE agreed to go skiing with me. Hahahaha

ShuSien was here....

I'm so glad that she came, although she only gave me like- a day notice, still it was so nice to see her. I miss the good old days, us hanging out at cafes, talked for hours, our chinese new year gambling session....it was a good 10 days, i would love to take some time off work to travel with her, unfortunately my workload was crazy at that time...she was so easy to please, and fun to hang out with...i had a fabulous time.....pls come again!

It is still coming...

Sewing machine is delayed, due to several reasons....argh!!!!
New status update tells me that it has left left country of origin....fingers crossed.

sewing machine is coming...

When i got my paycheck on friday, the first thing i did was to order my sewing machine..is coming....is coming...TUESDAY!!!

what are you looking for in a relationship?

A friend told me on friday night that i'm not going to marry Him, ever. It didn't bother me that much, but i was curious why she thinks so. She said He is not inspiring me, i get too comfortable around him, but isn't it what you are looking for? Daily life is already full of dramas, isn't comfort enough? Isn't it nice that you know you can fall back on something? Is it not enough?

The curious case of Benjamin Button

I know the movie was out a year ago, bare with me, i just got the DVD.
I absolutely love it, what a fantastic movie! didn't really expect it to be that good. Highly recommended.

Second wave of the economy crisis

When news reported Germany is out of Recession some weeks ago, i was relieved, so relieved like you wouldn't believe it. Then i thought, actually the economy crisis wasn't so bad, ok, the bankers lost their jobs, the GDP was down, but it didn't really hit home- until now. BA is cutting 1500 jobs, NIKE cut 15% of their global workforce, people are being layoff as we speak, so is my company. Restructuring and restructuring, and restructuring. I cannot stand that word anymore, seriously, not anymore. It was bankers, car industry, real estate, airlines, then it will gradually filtered down to us, be ready.

X Factor

I'm generally not a big fan of reality show, but i can't help myself of getting hooked on X-factor. I know a lot of people who think it is a crap show, tra lalala....i hate to admit but i do love it.

It makes me feel so hopeful/positive to see talented people get a chance in their life to show the world how good they are. It takes a lot of guts and courage to be able to walk on that stage, and hey, at least they are not sitting in front of the TV moaning and whinging about absolutely everything. They take charge of their own life, they are willing to take that risk and do something about it! That------is an inspiration to me.

My new motto? stop moaning, get my lazy ass off the sofa and do something about it!!

Can you buy happiness?

if yes, how much would you pay for it?

Sketching

Im glad that i start sketching again.....so glad.

sewing machine

the one i want is almost 900 euros. what the &*()#$%%^&*!
kill me. kill me.

Damn it, summer is over.

I spent my whole summer working. Not exactly the thing I've hoped for, nor planned, but is just the reality. I'm gutted i didn't take a summer break or go to the beach or something, instead I'm sitting here late night moaning about missing summer. I cannot believe it.
Everybody's been away, enjoying the sunshine, enjoying life! That should be what I'm doing as well! not sitting in the office, working all day long. I thought my time in Esprit was over, that my life will be less stressful and i will have more time to....basically think. I was so wrong. It started quite well, but now it is just nightmares, and nightmares. I'm sick of it. I'm serious. I can't work like this anymore, I'm literally 'empty', nothing left, i work like a robot, like a fucking maniac. Where is the light in the tunnel? now that summer is over, i might as well just stay in the tunnel till next summer. I'm so sorry that i moaned about work all the time, but i need to get it out, and get it over with. THIS IS SAD.
I'm going to take a week off in Oct, going to Italy, looking forward to it. NOTHING CAN STOP ME, AND I MEAN IT, NOTHING!!

Sacrifice?

We have to admit, there is no Perfect couple, no Perfect partner, nothing is perfect. I don't really believe there is another person who is made just for you, and you two will match perfectly together. Let's face it, even if there is, would it be so easy for you to find him/her out of 6.777 billion population in the world? No.
We are all individuals, we have things we want to achieve in our life, and things that will make us happy. What if your path is not the same as your partner's path, the things that make you happy might not do the same for him/her? what do you do? Is not like you don't like that person anymore, it has nothing to do with love whatsoever but is just the path never seems to come together. Do you sacrifice? Is that what we have to do? Who should sacrifice then? Is it fair to do so?

Schumacher not running again

I was devastated when i heard the news that he is not racing again, well, to be more specify, he can't race with a F-1 car anymore. He sustained injury from his Feb bike accident. Just heard from colleagues that we(as in PUMA) already prepared his cap and his shoes for racing.(PUMA sponsors Scuderia Ferrari team-from clothing to shoes) How sad.....
Another more devastating news: i was thinking since i missed this year's Grand Prix, i will have to make it next year-just to find out that our free tickets was given from BMW every year, and since they pull out from Formula one next year, means no more free tickets and trips to the Pit Stops. Argh......I'm not joking, i couldn't eat afterwards...

Berlin 2.

Here are the highlights to do:

Hackesche Hofe:

take a stroll around the Art Nouveau courtyard, nice flat, nice environment, nice little boutiques. Alte Schonhauserstr., Munzstr., Mulackstr., Torstr. all worth exploring, lots of shops. There is a very popular Chinese restaurant called Monsieur Vuong. Extremely popular, but i didn't have a chance to try it, the queue was too long, but i'm definitely going to try it next time. There are Major high street brands as well as little designer boutique around which makes it a nice to walk around, plenty to explore.

Friedrichstr.

supposed to be good too, but i didn't really explored this area, but there is a good Italian restaurant called twelve apostles. unbelievably tasty food....huge restaurant, reasonably priced, big potion, friendly staffs, highly recommended.

Flea Market at Tiergarten
lots of antiques, quite enjoyable

Tacheles art house
i missed it, it is a former departmental store which they transform it into a gallery(sort of), have to see

I would say it is quite inspiring to walk around in the city. I also have to say Berliner has a very different aesthetic, and the way they dressed is quite interesting. For instance, there is a glove which is very 'Berlin', glove which looks like a sock. Unfortunately i didn't take a picture, and i can't find it in the Internet either.... They tend to wear a lot of midi length skirts, deconstruction pieces, etc....

I stayed in Meininger City Hostel-very clean, in a alternative area, very friendly staffs, good vibe, can have seperate rooms(not traditional dorm), i can imagine to stay there again.

What are you waiting for? go now and enjoy.
PS: don't go in the winter, too cold to walk around

Berlin

Ich liebe Berlin(i like Berlin). If i can get a job in Berlin, i would move immediately, seriously, i didn't really want to leave.

I still cannot believe it took me almost 3 years to come to Berlin. I always wanted to come, but the train ticket was so expensive, and i got lucky this time because i was there for work. I extended my stay together with 2 of my colleagues, and explored the city in the weekend. To be honest, we were shopping all the time, didn't do any sight seeing at all, and i think it will be interesting to do it with Him instead. What do you expect anyway, we were all women, nothing could have stopped us!!

So yea, it took us 5 hours to drive to Berlin from Nurnberg, it wasn't bad at all because we were driving a fast car-a BMW KOMBI from work, and without speed limit on German Autobahn(highway), it was actually bloody fantastic.

I like the Vibe in Berlin, people are more open minded, they speak English, you can still get dinner at 12.30 midnight, you can randomly bump into a gallery at 12 and they talk to you, and explaining everything, it is not something i expected really. People are so chill(maybe because 20% of them are unemployed), is just so nice to be there.

For pics, see facebook, i will udpate some highlights to do in Berlin in my next post.

Book your ticket now, don't hesitate. Youth hostel is a great choice, i stayed in one, and it was great.

Massa and Schumacher

My tears was running down my face when i saw the incident, i couldn't help it. I wasn't there when Senna was killed, i didn't feel anything, but seeing Massa crashed to the wall at 125mph, unbearable.
He is not my favourite driver, but he is a good driver and i like him. I do hope he can get well very soon, but i'm also glad to see Schumacher back in Action. It will be a very interesting weekend in Valencia. Bring it on!

Birthday.

Is 10:58pm, im counting down. alone.
I'm not excited. at all.
Work's been crazy, i didn't even have time to think what i want to do for my birthday.
Do i want to do something for my birthday?
I actually don't know.
I sure know that i dont have any energy left to think about it.
25. It doesn't mean anything to me-strangely.
Just got a call from God mother, she's the first, although I did get my present from HIM on Saturday.
Is kind of sad, isn't it?
He said to me-you are all grown up, you should be happy. I don't feel happy.
I feel kind of pathetic writing this blog, at this time.

udpate

Just came back from Berlin's bread and butter show, extremely exhausted, but berlin is fantastic!!! will update you all with pics and stuffs soon, but it will take a while. Im extremely busy at work, and i just hope things will get a bit easy soon.

Kit house-Hof Haus

Hooked up with UK tv AGAIN-the reason i say AGAIN, is because it kind of comes and goes. I wouldn't go into detail-long story short- my landlord won't allow me to put up the satellite on the wall, so is on a stand plus it is 2 years old, not stable anymore, whenever the wind blows, i have to pray.....

Glad to be connected to the real world again, i find myself watching my all time favourite-Grand Design with Kevin McCloud(check it out in youtube) They talked about brilliant home architecture, obviously, not each one of them is my favourite, but i have to admit, im completely blown over by this week's feature-Hof Haus.

You have to admire the efficiency and the cleverness of the Germans. It was just unbelievable to watch. Check out the concept behind the company(http://www.huf-haus.com/). The distinctive feature of the Hof Haus is its post and beams architecture with huge glass, it has signature Bauhaus characteristic-'focus on the essential, where everything has its purpose and nothing is wasted', with smart engineering and careful planning, they 'deliver' the house in pieces (think ikea) to the building site, and put it up in a week-with water and electricity, no delays. Isn't it amazing? Absolutely blown me away. check out the video:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pIBcLQDLaPo

It feels so great to be inspired.

Frankisches Freiland Musuem

It wasn't a good thursday, the weather was really bad, windy, sunny, rainy, sunny, cloudy, just not a good day for outing, nevertheless i thought it would be better than to stay home and not doing anything, since Simon(my work colleague) highly recommended it, i thought 'why not' and went.

This is a Franconian(this area) open air museum about the cultural heritage of this area, showing the architecture, housing and working life of the rural population in former times. They even moved these farmhouses from other areas, relocate here in Bad Weindsheim, it is indeed very interesting. Not far from where i live, around 60km, but it took me an hour to get there because there wasn't any highway, but small roads, i drove past some little villages, and it was a enjoyable drive.

I actually keyed in the city centre on my TOMTOM(navigation system), i thought since this is quite popular they must have sign post on the way...i was wrong. First, there were some road works, i needed to take a detour, then i was in the city centre, but no sign post telling me how to get to the museum. Luckily i had the address of the tourist info center with me, and i keyed in TOMTOM, but it leads me to an industrial area............?WTF? then i turned back, and started to look for signboards, i knew it must there somewhere, and found this small little signpost where it says you can walk to the museum, cars are not allowed on the small lane. There wasn't any parking space around and i thought, this should be it, and i parked my car in the residential area, and walked.

I have to say it was quite scary-it was like in the middle of nowhere, and it was windy, the trees were making funny noises...i thought 'right, look where you have end up', but i sticked to my guts, and walked for another 10 mins, then i saw a car park, then tourist buses. i knew i will find it! and i did. Here's a pic of the narrow lanes where i thought was scary.

Nevertheless i found it, bought the ticket, got an english guide(i thought there won't be any) and realised there were a lot of old peoples, and a few small young families, and me the only Asian. Anyway, that's not important-i started my trip-the receptionist told me i can spend some good hours there, i walked, and walked and walked. It was really windy, look at my hair.....

They do keep the houses in good condition, and even furnished it and keep the livestock in the buildings! Most of them are timber houses, and covering 6 centuries and exhibited over an area of 100acres, the fields between complexes are farmed, and it was just beautiful, absolutely beautiful. I felt like i was living in the 17th century(incase some of you are not aware, im hooked on historical novels by Philippa Gregory), and it was like putting images into my head-how the people live in former times, surprising enough, it goes well with what i was imagining the whole time. More pics.





I even sat on top of the hill for a brief moment, enjoyed the breeze, saw this old lady walked by, she gave me a smile, i gave her mine, perhaps to acknowledge we were both alone, who knows. There, i didn't know if you can see the bench, i sat there, overlooking the vast landscape.

It was a nice day out, i enjoyed it-worth going. If you want to see more pics see facebook.

Memories

Memories are what we were, what we have done, what we have seen and what we have learnt. Memories are feelings and emotions that were attached to one particular event in life that in time has passed. Memories are the base of perception in which we use to form the present and future window of our very own world.

Ever felt anger, sadness, happiness, depression, hope or love when something that has happen in the past triggers the current emotion that you are feeling? Memories are much more in our lives than we ever hope for. Although time has moved on, there are lessons, events, or experiences that we will never forget, and will forever lies in our minds to the very last day we live. Some choose to hide it, some choose to ignore it, or some choose to express the memories that we once felt.

I remember all my memories; i hope them tight and constantly portray them in my imaginary world, and think of what could have been, and all the 'ifs' in my mind. These constant and random flashes of images of memories make my mind twist and turn as i try to find my path in my ordinary world.......

travel blogging

I used to blog about my travels, sharing my tips with other, but i don't know why i stop doing it. Maybe is time to start again.......

Time is running out??

Once you grow older, there are more and more things on your list which you have to accomplished before reaching certain age. Going to college then University, Getting a reasonanle job, Getting your first car, Moving out, Relatioship, Getting a better job with better pay, Buying a flat or house, Getting married, Having children, Saving money for the next generation, Taking care of the elder, Taking care of your partner, Buying a family car, ......etc and etc.

I sometimes feel my time is running out, im under pressured to deliver-both in my job and life.

I've been seeing someone for almost 7 years, what happen now? I don't want to get married but we are just going nowhere, i cannot see where we are heading. Is time running out, should i settle down?

To stay or to go home? I've been working for a few years now away from home, and i left home almost 5 years, is it time to go home? do i want to go home? how long can i stay? How long do i want to keep doing this job? I want to do my own stuffs eventually, and is it the right time now? If i start later, there will be more things to juggle in my life compare to now. Is time running out?

I want to travel travel and travel, but i can't seem to find the time and money, im afraid if i leave here eventually, is not going to be easy to come back again. Is time running out?

Once you grow older, you are feeling more attached to certain place, and finding it hard to adjust to new environment, finding it hard to change your bad habit. Should i move to somewhere else sooner and start all over again? is time running out?

I don't know, i guess even it runs out, i will not regret for the decision i have made so far.

I'm writing a business proposal.

and i want to make it work.

Where's the passion?

I didn't even realised is gone until now.
How can i get it back?

how do you know?

How do you know you two belong together?

To accept

Was talking to my German teacher Frau Ernst the other day, i have to mention- Frau Ernst, she has energy of a 12 year old girl although she is 73, and insist on teaching even though her husband doesn't agree. Her passion is inspiring but she likes to talk...A LOT, but that i can understand, after all what do you expect from a 73 year old lady?

As always, she likes to talk about 'absolutely anything' during our lessons, and at that particular day, she told us a secret. A secret of happy marriage. How she remain happy for the last 45 years.

'You have to accept the other person completely and never try to change him/her. that's the secret of happy marriage'

In some way, i do agree with her, but can it be done? i doubt.

i didn't know missing someone is exhausting.

ya.

I want to travel and have long holidays

It does seem like i travel a lot. Well, i do, i just came back from london, and i travel to Dusseldorf once a month to see someone. My london trip was not wholly for pleasure, i worked for 2 days, then met up with my 15 relatives from Malaysia and my parents, i was the tour guide, showing them around, it was not really a relaxing trip, but i do enjoy their company, and i had nice chinese food, i can't complain. I was travelling very often, but not enjoying and not.............TRAVELLING.
The last holiday i had was......see i can't even remember. I spent my Christmas last year with my parents and my sister, it was the gap between my last job and this one. It was extremely hectic with me moving down here, starting a new job and everything. Then i went to London for CNY, again not for my pleasure but something else. I went home for a week in Feb for my bro's wedding, not really a holiday, though i had good time seeing everyone. March, didn't really travel. April, i was in Mannheim to see some friends, it was great fun! then went to Dusseldorf and Koln for work again, and spent Easter in Dusseldorf. Didn't go anywhere or see anything. Was supposed to go to Holland to see tulips, in the end, too poor and can't afford the fuel. Straight after that, to London, and now back to Nurnberg.
I felt exhausted, even my boss could see that, i'm not satisfied. I want to travel! to see new things! to experience something new! i need new inspiration! i need a long holiday for myself, only myself, with no one to please, nothing to worry, no one to see, no dinner to go to, but with money to spend! I'm getting so dull......so dull. god.

Happy ever after

Is it possible?
I saw 'becoming Jane' yesterday, and i watched 'northanger abbey' today, to know what Jane Austen went through and to read what she has written, is very sad. Coming back to the novels she has written, something strikes me, it is always with a happy ending(the couple is happily married) always-happy ever after, what happens to after the marriage? what about that? They stay true and faithful to each other? They hold each other till the end of the day like the vows they've taken?
I do wonder if happy ever after does exist, after all, we are human, love fades and love dies.

lovely dinner.

I was very busy at work today, nevertheless i managed to get out at 7pm, catching the lovely sunset(just adjusted the clock on Sunday, thus it is still light at 7), went to the supermarket, got a bottle of white vine, because i already know what i want to cook tonight.

I've cooked a creamy pasta before but unsuccessful, so this time, i decided to give it another go, and it turn out to be fantastic!! I think i got the right cream this time, I've checked with colleagues beforehand, just to make sure i don't get it wrong.

This is it. I've already eaten mine, i was too hungry. This is the portion for my lunch tomorrow(I'm starting a new scheme, in order to save money, I'm cooking my dinner and lunch for next day together). Spaghetti with salmon and mushroom. I know this is a strange combination, but it is very very tasty.... plus garlic bread(to save time, i bought a ready-made one)

And of course, a bottle of white wine.....

The combination was just so right, and i can't wait to do it again. So happy and satisfied.

Misses him here.

He took a week off and spent it here in Nurnberg with me. I was of course working, and he was at home, cooking, cleaning up the dishes afterwards, cleaning the flat, going grocery shopping...... i say this is a good decision, Monday was the second time he cooked for me after almost 7 years, i know it sounds a little bit unbelievable, but it is true!!! It was extremely kind of him to use up his holidays here, while i was working.
He took off today, and my heart went with him. The flat is quiet again, and there won't be hot meal ready when i come home after work.

Spring

A sunny day today, many people got off work early to enjoy it, so did i.

This is the coldest and longest winter since i'm here, and i can't wait to wear my flip flops again. Took some snap shot on my way home-clear blue sky, i even open the window to enjoy the breeze and bird's chirping.

While i was driving, couldn't make up my mind where to go. In the end, i've decided to walk a little in the park behind my flat, believe it or not, this is the first time, but i've already been living here for almost 3 months!

It was quiet, and nice, and spring indeed, is just around the corner.

Settling down

Finally, i have a weekend for my own, cleaning my flat and move all the unnecessary boxes to the cellar. With the kitchen installed on Tuesday, this finally feels more like home.
Work's been alright, i'm starting to be busy with few collections to do. It is actually quite interesting, i'm designing a sailing collection for the States, then another winter collection for Retail worldwide. I have never design a sailing collection before, and i'm happy to have a chance to learn how to do it. These are the thing i can never experience if i stay in Esprit, and i have to say i kind of like it, but i'm still struggling with the different way of working in Puma. Well, nothing is perfect, you gain something and you lose something at the same time.
Everything seems going to the right direction, except the worrying economy crisis. Retail sector is been hitting hard, and i really don't know how long i can stay in this job, moreover the probation period is 6 MONTHS!! Well, we'll see.

Ikea. my kitchen

I was very excited yesterday, knowing i will be getting my kitchen tomorrow, after 5 weeks of waiting, but i received a call early this morning, and ikea informed me that they can't deliver the kitchen tomorrow because one of the employee has a funeral to go to. !@#$%^&**
I have never heard of such an excuse. Don't get me wrong, i do feel for the employee but i just don't understand it was only 1 employee, why can't they look for someone else to replace him? So what's going to happen next week, the wife has a baby? the car broke down? Am i that unlucky??

Short trip home.

If it is not Thong's wedding(my eldest bro), i would not go back. A week is too short, and to spend a thousand euros on airticket, i would expect to stay at least 2 weeks. Anyway, i've spent a lovely week in Kl, and suprisingly i managed to see 'almost' everyone, so i'm happy.

It was sad to leave in such a hurry, but at the same time, im also glad that i'm back on my own. i know that sounds crazy, but imagine you have 9 people living under the same roof, it gets a bit 'crowded'. you know what i mean?

Glad to be back, and i finally have the feeling-im living here, im not on a long business trip.

i finally understood

This is the most normal evening of my life, sitting on the sofa, tired, not a very happy day, then i browse through my dvd collection, pick one and make myself comfortable.
Just when i finish that episode, it suddenly hit me. I wasn't thinking about my day, i wasn't thinking about my problems, i wasn't thinking about anything, but just the movie itself. I finally understood the importance of it, it not only gives you pleasure of spending your free time, to distract you, or to educate you, to inspire you, but it gives you a chance to hope, to imagine, to dream the life 'could be'. That's why they call it the DREAMWORKS (or DREAMSWORK?) don't know. Anyway, my point is, i finally got it, and i can't believe how slow i am, god forgive me.
Hollywood, i salute you......(i meant the movie industry). Please do not stop making good movies, i really really need it now.

stay or leave?

The Australian wild fires moved me to tears. Almost 200 have died, few thousand homeless, and most of the casualties were believed to have stayed and fight the fire. What would you do? do you stay and fight? or fled and live?

Busy

Finally i have time to sit down and relax a little bit, this past 2 months was hectic, with my family's trip, moving out and moving in, getting a car, starting a new job, spending Chinese new year in London, travelling back and forth to Dusseldorf, getting a kitchen, .......I'm happy to say many of the boxes are ticked, though this flat is a ongoing project, but at least is more like a home now.
Home is partly settled, so what's next? my job.
I have to say i admire those people who are constantly job hopping. I find it quite hard to adjust myself and to adapt to new environment. Puma has a very different structure than Esprit, after 5 weeks i still feel like i just started the job the day before, in addition to that, i have a very different role in Puma which makes it even more complicated. But with the worsen economy situation, I'm glad that i have a job, a flat, no mortgage and no loans, just a small debt to my parents because i have to buy a car and I'm not willing to pay the 9% interest rate(what's better than 0% interest?), i do feel lucky, indeed.
After my flat project, I'm going to save some money and get myself a nice sewing machine. I miss making clothes, i miss everything of it! The satisfaction it gives me, designing without limitation and no one to please but myself. I hate to see my creativity becomes blunt!
I will update with more photos of my flat soon.

work in progress

Just want to show you all a glimpse of my flat-work in progress, i have to wait 5 weeks for my kitchen, and nothing is quite complete, but i'm looking forward to it.

Kitchen and Ikea

one of the worst day of my life.

internet

Finally, internet is hooked up and this.............. means a lot to me.

Happy Chinese New Year

Spending another Chinese new year away from home, it didn't really hit me until i called my mum, and heard all those new year song, it really got to me. Although I'm coming home for my brother's wedding in three weeks time, but is not the same. I miss the atmosphere, i miss the people, i miss 'it'.
I wish everyone of you have a fantastic new year, and may Ox year brings you lots of prosperity and happiness.

short update

Started my new job, moved into my new flat (is a mess right now, no kitchen, no sink, boxes everywhere), got a car(used), living 440km from HIM, new city, zillion of things to do....... this seems like endless. If i tell you I'm happy, then is obvious that I'm lying. I know, i know, it takes time, i fucking know that.
Last minute decided to visit Him this weekend, is kind of weird coming back here to Dusseldorf, i felt like 'coming home', which i think is bizarre. I guess it is because i know the place, i know where to get good Chinese food, i know where the shops are, and i don't have anything to worry about. I wonder how long it takes to make me feel like that in Nurnberg. Let's see